Why do I care what other people think!

When things do not go how you planned, Adapt

I do not remember when the spark turned into a fire. I do not even remember which combination of events and my state created the spark. I do not remember how i was, though in moments of tranquility and of utmost peace of soul I see myself, the present, and I have a hazy vision of what is in store for the future. This fire burning inside me seems eternal to me as of now. I get scared of it sometimes. I am afraid that this fire may engulf me and lot of people with me if it gets out of hand . Yet sometimes I feel lucky to feel the warmth it gives off .
The fire will not engulf me , I have a feeling that whispers to my heart. I am not alone in my battle, I feel sometimes a Hand is guiding me, watching over me, sitting quite intently and observing me, even smiling when I make some mistakes, getting angry when i repeat them often, yet not stopping me from experiencing what I should and I know it would be there to stop me if I tried to go beyond a certain limit. Sometimes I wonder, who is guiding the Hand that is guiding me. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed by the feeling that there is a Hand at all and I think how lucky I am to have it and what did I do to deserve it. One day I am sure that Hand will leave me to move on my own, when it knows that I can find my own path. May be , I would even meet somebody and he/she would think that I was sent by his Hand to guide him/her. The cycle of life would continue. We would wake up, eat, work , sleep. But it is only when one hand extends to the other and in the rare moment they finally shake, time stops itself to applaud the magic of the hand trick.

posted by inhas @ 10:57 AM