Why do I care what other people think!

The moment ......

Life is made up of moments. Moments of happiness which can turn into moments of sadness , moments of triumph which can turn into moments of failure , moments of solitude which can turn into moments of lonliness and moments in which life comes to rest.
I sometimes try to recall my childhood and what I can come up with are merely moments. What you remember about life is like a zero-hold sampled signal ( gosh i hate DSP), even though life itself is continous what you remember about it are discretely sampled points( incidents) which some how got registered into your memory. I have collected lot of these moments here during my stay.

I have had ups and downs during my stay, moments in which my senses have experienced heavenly bliss ( and I am not taking about drinking;-) ) and one of these ups have come recently when I realized that I am a pretty lucky person. I have been to Kiruna, a place in northern Sweden which is located above the arctic circle. Why did I want to go there when it was freezing -20 degrees. For the simple reason I am crazy. I wanted to see the norrsken (aka aurora borealis). So all geared up with every body part covered up with atleast two layers of clothing I flew into Kiruna. It was cold but it was also very cool ;-). We were tired by the evening and were thinking of calling it quits for the day when we decided to venture out into the cold. I had not paid good money just to sit in a heated room. So out we went. It had been cloudy when we reached there and people we had met had not seen the norrsken even after staying there for 5 nights. But by 8 the clouds had disappeared and it was the most awesome view of the sky I have had for a long time. So out we walked, playing in the softest of snow checking out the sky from time to time. We took a tour of town, we were getting tired and thinking about heading back when one of us spotted something green in the sky. We had gotten lucky!!!. It was like a green dragon that was flying in the sky. It started out as faint on one end of sky and within a minute it had become dark green on the other like they were meant to be the dragon's flame. And then they were gone within 3 minutes of their starting. To be sure we even asked a local to confirm if those were the northern lights.

This made me think (sorry mr mithrandir could not help it), about moments. But what if we had decided to stay in?? Then we would have missed the moment and like most of the people leaving in the hotel would have said that they did not happen during their stay. Life is defined by some key moments and it is upto us to make our moments by our selves. If you do not decide which moment is right for you, life can just keep on going on continuously but then you would have nothing to remember it by cause you only remember the spikes not the monotonicity. What if I had not filled in the form for coming here on the last day? What would have my life turned out to be? While writing this one more question has arisen in my head, what if you realize later that you have missed a moment?? The moment stays with you but it can easily turn into one of those things you start to regret. Luckily or unluckily I can recall only one of these moments in my life where I have realized later that I missed the moment.

There was also one more thing, there were a group who stood in the cold for nearly 4 hours but did not get their sight cause they were looking from the place where the whole sky was not visible. Some times you have to change your position to get a better view. Sometimes just taking a step more is sufficient sometimes you have to move a lot. And sometimes you just get plain lucky!!!!!

posted by inhas @ 9:21 PM